All For Naught

Well Ladies and Gentleman, here I am, making yet another attempt to post the happenings of my life onto the world wide web. To start this thing off with a bang I'm going to fill you in on todays drama. For the last 5 years 7 months and 2 days I have been making my living working at Lumbra Hardwoods Inc. When I first started there I was happy, I felt fulfilled, I felt proud. My job is far from easy. It is physically exhausting and can wear you down quickly. Judging by the 30 or more people who have come and gone in my time, its not one for the weak or lazy. I used to tell everyone with luster where I worked and what I did cause I wanted everyone to know. Over the years, that luster and that passion has faded, and rather rapidly in the last couple years I might add. I'm tired of doing the same thing every single day, the monotony bores you to tears or even to tears some day, but that isn't what is killing my ambition. You see, the Lumbra's are some of THE nicest and honest people in the world. They are by far the best bosses and management ANYWHERE. They run the mill like a family business because it is a family business and we are just as much a part of that family.

That being said...is half of the problem. They are not very strict on who they hire or have very high standards. Unfortuneatly that means that about every other guy they hire is a complete idiot. Sure, most of them are nice guys and all and have good intentions but they don't have a enough common sense to match a housefly. I am frustrated, frustrated beyond all belief with these guys because when they do something wrong, it is the vets that get stuck fixing it or doing it right while they suffer no consequence. After going through this with so many guys that have come and gone, I am at my ends. I really don't feel like I can take it anymore and it is not worth it because from 7:00am when I punch in to 4:30 when I punch out I am frustrated or pissed off.

My wife and I have agreed that I was going to work at the mill for 2 more years and leave in the late summer of 2010 to start attending college full time. The reason that I was going to stay at the mill even that long was so when I did leave I could take my retirement with me which I was hoping was going to be near $25,000. That was until today...

This afternoon we met with our financial representatives and got to each discuss our portfolios individually. Now I understand that the world's economy is going down the tubes rather quickly but as of December 4th, 2008 I have lost 51% of my retirement....51 FUCKING PERCENT!!!!

I feel like everything that I have worked for is gone, and I don't know if I have enough time to rebuild it before I decide to go to school. I don't want to work at the mill anymore as it is and I sure as hell do not want to have to make my time table any longer but I don't see much of a choice. I seriously doubt I will be able to recover those kinds of loses in 21 months, especially with the way the economy is still dwindling. What do I do?